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this is me

and I do not eat

and I do not sleep

and I cry when they serve meals

now

this is me

unable to share

unable to touch

unable to speak

anymore

this is me

preparing a bed

preparing a tea

preparing wine

for one

this is me

walking through my bedroom

walking through my hallway

walking through this world

alone

this is me

lighting up a candle

lighting up some salvia

lighting up the longing

on repeat

this is me

taking off my clothes

taking off my rings

taking off pink glasses

to see

this is me

sobering

crying

staying grounded

no matter how much it hurts

how much it cost

how hard it is

to move forward

I will not tag along

I was born to be a queen